Marriage, Permanence, and the Third Presence in the Room
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student: May I return to something you said and did not finish? You told me the difficulty lies almost entirely on the far side of the wedding. But you never said what the difficulty is.
professor: What do you suppose it is?
student: Conflict, I would have thought. Disagreement. Discovering the person is not who you believed.
professor: That is what everyone answers, and it is not wrong, only shallow. Conflict is the occasion of the difficulty. It is not the difficulty itself.
student: Then what is?
professor: That you must go on living beside someone who has seen you clearly. Consider it. Everyone you meet in an ordinary week sees a version of you that you have arranged. You choose what to show. In marriage the arrangement fails, not through any cruelty, but simply through proximity. There is not enough distance left to keep the presentation running.
student: You are saying the trouble is being known.
professor: I am saying that being known is the thing we most want and least tolerate. And a marriage is the one arrangement designed to give it to you in full.
student: But surely that is precisely what makes it good.
professor: It is what makes it good and it is what makes it unbearable, and these are not two facts. They are one fact seen from two moods. You will want to be known on Tuesday and want to hide on Wednesday, and the person will be sitting in the same room on both days.
student: Then what does a person do on Wednesday?
professor: Stay. That is nearly the whole of it. The instruction is not complicated. It is only expensive.
student: I want to ask about something in the passage that I passed over. Paul says the widow is bound as long as her husband lives, and then that she is free. But he speaks of the bond as though death is what ends it, not her feelings, not even the quality of the marriage. Death.
professor: You have noticed something most readers hurry past. He gives one terminus and it is not an emotional one.
student: It seems severe.
professor: Does it? Tell me what the alternative would be.
student: That the bond ends when the marriage stops working.
professor: And who would decide when that had occurred?
student: The two of them, I suppose. Or one of them.
professor: Then you have not described a bond at all. You have described an arrangement that persists exactly as long as both parties prefer it, which is to say, a thing with no holding power whatever. A rope that unties itself the moment you pull on it is not a rope. It is decoration.
student: But people do pull on it. Marriages do end.
professor: Certainly. I am not saying the rope cannot be cut. I am saying it does not come undone by itself, and that the difference matters enormously to the two people inside it. A man who knows the rope will hold behaves differently in a storm than a man who suspects it will not.
student: How so?
professor: If you believe the bond may quietly dissolve when things become difficult, then every difficulty is also a threat, and you will spend your strength defending your position rather than repairing the trouble. Whereas if the thing will hold, then a quarrel is only a quarrel. It is not a referendum on whether you remain.
student: The permanence makes the fighting safer.
professor: It makes the fighting honest, which is better
than safe. You may say the true thing rather than the strategic one, because you are not negotiating for your continued existence in the house.
student: I had always heard permanence described as the burden of marriage.
professor: By people who had not lived inside it, I expect. It is the load bearing wall. Remove it and the rest of the structure does not become lighter. It comes down.
student: You spoke earlier of the third presence. That He is the one joining. I have been sitting with it and I find I want to ask something perhaps foolish.
professor: Ask it. Foolish questions are usually the ones worth the trouble.
student: If He is party to the marriage from the start, is He party to it also when it is going badly? Or does He withdraw and wait for us to sort ourselves out?
professor: What did He do at the tomb?
student: I am not sure I follow.
professor: You were reading Matthew, were you not. Where did He say He would be?
student: Galilee. Waiting ahead of them.
professor: And when did He say it?
student: Before the failure. In the same breath as the prediction that they would scatter.
professor: Then you have your answer, and it did not come from a chapter about marriage. He does not attach Himself to the parts of your life that are functioning. He announced where He would be standing before anyone had yet fallen, and He was there. Apply that wherever you like. The habit of the man is consistent.
student: So He is in the house on the bad night.
professor: He is in the house, and He was in it before the bad night, and He will be in it after. This is why the counsel to marry in the Lord is not a piece of religious tidiness. It is a description of who else will be present. A couple who married without reference to Him may still call on Him later and He will come. But they will be inviting a guest. The other couple never had to invite anyone.
student: That distinction stings a little.
professor: It is meant to be useful rather than comfortable. And notice, I have not said the first couple is lost. I have said the house was framed differently. Frames may be reinforced. It is simply harder and it takes longer and there is a period during which everyone must live in the noise of the work.
student: One more thing troubles me, and it is about myself rather than the doctrine.
professor: Those are the real questions. Go on.
student: You said the measuring stick is held up to me, not only to the other person. But I do not have those things. I am not particularly patient. I keep records. I am not sure I could forgive the way that chapter describes.
professor: Good.
student: Good?
professor: You have arrived at the discovery on this side of the wedding rather than the other, which is a considerable mercy and which most people are denied. Now hear the rest of it, because you have stopped halfway. Where did Paul say that love comes from?
student: He does not say, in that chapter. He only describes it.
professor: He describes it because he assumes you have read the rest of the letter. Nowhere does he suggest a man generates patience out of his own supply. He is describing the character of God and telling you it is available. Every item in that list is first a thing done to you.
student: I had read it as a standard to reach.
professor: It is a standard, and you will not reach it, and that was never the arrangement. You are not being asked to manufacture patience. You are being asked to pass along something you have already been given rather more of than you have noticed.
student: And if I have not noticed?
professor: Then you have identified the actual work, and it is not the work you expected. You thought you needed to become the sort of person who could love well. In fact you need to become the sort of person who knows he has been loved well. The first is a project. The second is only attention.
student: That sounds easier and I suspect it is not.
professor: It is far harder. A project you can begin on a Monday and feel virtuous about by Friday. Attention has no such rewards. But it is the only order that works. A man who tries to love out of a supply he believes to be his own will run dry and then grow bitter about running dry, and his bitterness will look to him like an argument against the whole thing.
student: Whereas the other man?
professor: Goes back to the source, repeatedly and without embarrassment, which is what he was made to do. He is not the well. He is the channel. And a channel is not humiliated by being empty. It is only doing what a channel does when it has been cut off from the river.
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